Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Turning good intentions into actual actions....


If you have been reading this blog for a while, you will know that
I'm a real champion of finishing things.
I believe even a wonky quilt keeps you warm,
and a finished project will show love to someone better than a UFO
jammed in the back of the cupboard.



Sometimes I start things and they don't make it because I miss a deadline,
or I fell out of love with the project or somehow it just got derailed.
I've learned to just go 'oh well' and carry on,
repurpose the project to something else and just get the thing finished!


This project started life as two tiny baby quilts for some premmie babies,
but life derailed this project and the babies are probably all grown up now
(I don't know them personally).
So I kicked my guilt about not completing this project
and decided to repurpose the strips I had cut to make a scrappy trip-along quilt.


It won't be very big, but I think I can put a border on
and it will be done. 
Often I have no idea who a quilt is going to be for
but once it is finished, it is just the ticket for someone who needs it.


So in little snippets of time, this quilt is coming together.
I just love the process of cutting and sewing and pressing.
It really does help my mental health.


Finishing something off is good for my mental health too!
Plus finally the room and table for my quilting machine is coming together,
the stars have finally aligned, and I'm hoping to start actually quilting some 
of these projects very very soon.

A finished quilt will say I love you
far better than a pile of good intentions and a box of guilt!

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

[Irreplaceable]


I used to have a good friend called Sally
and whenever I needed someone to talk me down off the edge
I would go over to Sally's house and she would sort me out.


After Sally died from breast cancer, I realised that I didn't have any pictures of her,
even all the time that she was sick, I never really thought about taking pictures
(we didn't all have cameras on our cell phones then)
and the only thing I had of her was this cardigan.


I have a precious memory of walking past her at school
and her being cheeky to me and she was wearing this cardigan.


For ages and ages I just kept it in my cupboard
as something special. Something to pull out and hold every now and again
and wish that she was here. I discovered that good friends are irreplaceable.
The space never gets filled, it is just always there reminding us of what we lost.


This year I've been slowly working through a bunch of personal stuff
that I'd shoved into the back of my heart, 
It really is amazing how much crap we can keep stored away
and how easily we can let people keep on hurting us even after
we think we have moved on.


Recently I pulled the cardy from the cupboard and I've started wearing it.
Not everything that has hurt us bad and not everything needs to be thrown out,
but much like Sally's cardy there, for me it has been time to pull out some of those old things 
and embrace these things that have hurt and just acknowledge they are there.

We might be healed up from our pasts,
but we have scars. Scars are fine. Nothing to be ashamed of at all.

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Thankful



Now that the first semester is finished and I've passed all the papers,
it is time to take a deep breath and reflect on the last six months.

There is no way in the world, we would have got through this
with out the help of our family and friends.


One thing that happened back on February 
before all the craziness began, is that Wendy and Aaron and Pheobe came to stay
with us for a week. But as it turned out, they stayed for nearly four months.

It was amazing. First of all amazing that we all still love each other,
and secondly amazing because we were able to support each other.


Wendy ably took over most of the mum duties 
and ran the house like clockwork.

We ran out of toilet paper last week, and I thought how that never happened
when Wendy was in charge of the shopping.

It was such great timing, having them here,
I don't think that I could have managed without all the extra help
(it was a bit helpful for them having somewhere to live
so hopefully we didn't take too much advantage of them!!)



We also had great support from our neighbours,
who are able to help with kid pick up and drop off for school.

It's the little things that make a big difference.


Another thing that has helped is the love from my lovely on-line friends.
Sophie dropped off chocolate chip cookies on the night I handed in six pieces of work
and Dee sent me this beautiful doll in the week when the workload broke me.


And lastly I just want to thank all the lovely people who read this blog
and comment faithfully. I really want to especially acknowledge 
These girls faithfully send me words of encouragement that warms my heart. 
There are lots of others of you who I regularly meet on IG or Facebook
and I love you all too.

I'm so glad that I got through, and it's only because of all the support
and encouragement. I won't lie, it was the hardest thing to do
but it feels great to have succeeded.


Tuesday, June 24, 2014

So don't act like it's a bad thing to love me....

 Sorry about the unscheduled bloggy break,
the end of the semester really kicked my butt!!
I have three posts knocking around in  my head and so here's the first one.


The kids and I were driving to school the other day
and a Justin Timberlake song came on and Reuben turned it up,
he said "oh this is my favourite" so I decided to listen to the words.


"So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me,Cause you might muck around and find your dreams come true with meSpend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was freeSo don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me, meIt's not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me"



And as I listened to him singing along with Justin Timberlake,
I felt the tears pricking at the back of my eyes,
this brave little boy singing "don't act like it's a bad thing to love me".


Anxiety in a kid doesn't necessarily look like just someone who worries,
it can look like a kid who is angry, or one who is defiant,
it can look like a kid who just doesn't want to leave the house,
and one who has a lot of fake complaints.

It can be hard to live with.


Last week Reuben went on camp for the week
and we missed him. You know how some salt in carmel makes it taste amazing,
or some chilli in the chocolate. It's the unexpected ingredient that makes 
the flavour explode in your mouth.

Reuben is like that unexpected flavour in our family.


As I listened to him singing, don't act like it's a bad thing to love me;
I realised that it's true, it's not a bad thing to love this kid,
in fact it's an amazingly good thing.

Loving Reuben is not always easy, but it is never a bad thing to love him.
I hope as he grows older he realises that even though loving him
means we drag him out the door and encourage him to be the best that he can be,
that our actions prove that it has never been a bad thing to love him.

Monday, June 2, 2014

In which I get published, and you can read it {Tend Magazine}


I'm so so excited to tell you that the second edition of this beautiful magazine
edited by my friend Debbie, is out now.

And I've got a project in it!! yes I do.
Just a simple picnic rug, easy to put together,
but exciting for me to contribute.


This is it here, it's a lovely rainbow quilt that lives with Leonie now!
I just love picnic rugs they are the backdrop to summer I think.



Tend magazine is an absolutely beautiful digital production,
with really thought provoking articles about things that we all should think about,
lots and lots of good reading.


But it also has food, crafts, gardening... really a whole range of things,
I love it (and not just because I managed to squeak into it).
Lots of the contributors are folks that you may have visited their blogs
and it's really nice to see them here as well.


I really think it will appeal to quite a wide range of people,
you can click here to purchase it.


I missed the deadline for the next issue,
but I'm looking forward to making something fun for the one after that.

I'm actually going to download mine into a memory stick
and take it in to be printed and bound so I can pore over it at my leisure!

I do hope you try it, I'm confident you will like it too.
Spread the word, this one is a goodie!!

Thursday, May 29, 2014

What I'm learning about life right now...


Sometimes life is so full of imperfection 
that eventually you have to stop and say, this is my life right now
and start to appreciate the beauty that is right there in front of you.


Like a bag of fresh organic veges from the co-op,
slightly more expensive that we wished, but right here, right now,
exactly what we need.


Or the fact that I don't have time to find some recipes 
for our very new steps learning to eat vegetarian food as a family
but I know enough (thanks to my dearest friend Wendy)
to be able to cook healthy delicious food for my family.


Not to focus on the dead flowers lingering in the vases
but to look at the bunch of fresh parsley on the bench.


Look past the clutter and debris of life on the dining table,
at the sweet child who is coming to uni with me today.


Look at the folded laundry on the sofa, 
and be glad that it is clean, dry and folded.
Putting it away is over-rated right??


Let go of the frustration of jobs not being done
and be thankful for the man who is scrubbing the burnt soup pot.


To learn to not feel overwhelmed by the work to do,
and just to let the process roll and go with that.

That's where I am right now, 
struggling with an essay that is too close to home,
 reminding me of what is broken in me,
but learning to be ok with those feelings
and not forgetting to appreciate what I do have.

That is what I'm learning about life right now.

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Chatter

As you all know I'm studying media and sociology at Canterbury University,
over the summer I wrote a plan for small businesses to find their best fit
using social media as part of my summer internship.



Well after I had written it and handed it it (and got an A thank you)
I realised that it would be a great basis for a workshop,
so I talked to my good friend Alex


and he talked to his good friend Alison....


and together we have decided to run some workshops for people who want to
find out how social media could fit for their business.



You can find our website here and our Facebook page here,
and (what's more) you can sign up for our free workshop on our website page.
We are calling ourselves Chatter, 
because that is what social media does well.