I have to say that I've done a lot of learning this year.
I'm learning where my limits and boundaries are
and how to make them work for me.
It's not a pretty process, but its a good and healthy one.
Sometimes I find myself making the same mistake over and over,
but I'm learning to take a step back and see how I could change something
and how I can make it work.
And even the ugly parts are still part of my story and that is ok too.
I started this quilt with high hopes and then realised that I'd made a mistake and the background was too busy. I kept on and finished it, because #uglyquiltsstillkeepyouwarm but now that it is done, I've kind of fallen for its quirkiness. It's ugly for sure, but I sewed a lot of myself into this quilt, I sewed it while I say with Annie when she was sick, I sewed it in the car and on the couch. I sewed it with friends and by myself. It represents a pretty ugly period of my life, but one that I feel sure I'll look back at and realise there was beauty there too.
My life is a bit like this quilt, a funny mix of very broken parts
and very good parts. And I think that
my task is to make them somehow work together.
For me I find it too easy to slide back into a passive role in my own life
and just let things steam roll over me.
But this year I am definitely learning to be brave
and to make changes so that things work out better for my family
and for myself.
The children and I have been dealing with a lot of very hard things,
but inspite of this, we have managed to create a very tight family unit.
We have each other's backs
and we have learned to be strong for each other.
There's a lot of love in my house
and that is so precious.