Sunday, July 23, 2017

Now is the winter of our discontent....

The school holidays are over and the kids are going back at school. My parental guilt level can go back down to the normal level. One day I'll look back at this time and {hopefully} realise that it didn't matter quite how much screen time the resident teen had over the holidays, but right now I do feel guilty about it. Life is a great juggling act and as a one income producing family, I'm struggling {and failing} to keep everything in balance.

A side benefit of the school holidays was that the second week when Annie was at her dads, I was able to work longer hours at work and so I didn't have to work on the weekend. It was great. Also it was TIPPING down with rain on Saturday so we stayed in our pyjamas all day and binge watched Sense 8. I also finished block 6 of the #eppparty and sewed seven of my #icecreamsoda blocks. My mind is feeling way calmer this morning that it did at the end of last week. So good.

I cannot wait for spring. I want to start growing things in my garden, I'm determined to succeed this year. I just want to eat tomatoes and cucumbers and fresh herbs with crusty bread and cheese. I want to make pesto and salsa verde and cook on the bbq. Man I'm so freaking over winter. 

Last week I had lunch with James and yesterday I got to hang out with Chrissy and Jacob. It really is so cool to have been all the way through the parenting process and reaping the benefits out the other side. It's such a relief to see that they have turned out amazing, in spite of all my many short comings. Really I'm amazed about what fantastic human beings they turned out. How does this even happen??

So anyway, even though it's winter and I'm so freaking over it, even though life is hard and sad and difficult on so many fronts. There are good things and today, I'm holding onto those. I'm going to drink lots of hot tea, write a ton of good copy today. We are having hot soup for dinner.
And tomorrow the sun will get up a tiny bit earlier. Spring will come.


  1. Way too much e-time for my teenagers this holiday as well, weather didn't help at all. Also, please bring spring faster and reduce the rain, so over wet, grey days.

  2. Deb, stop kicking yourself. You are a better person and a better mum than you give yourself credit for.
    Last winter here was terrible. We got a bit over 40 hours of sun between October and March. Ugh. I feel your pain. I hope you and yours weren't affected badly by the flooding.

  3. Crikey you are tough on yourself girl! go easy, remember we don't do perfect......we DO human.....which is NOT perfect. lovely EPP eye candy BTW.

  4. I'll go along and NAG at you--Quit "Shoulding" yourself to death You know I should do this or I should do that-there is no way that one person can do it all every hour of every day. Personally I think you are amazing and that your EPP project is going to be very bright and happy next winter!

  5. Stop being so hard on yourself, you are a great mum. You are doing the best you can. You are enough. You show up every day, without fail. This parenting ride is difficult. I feel it too, often. But it is so worth it.
    Big hugs from freezing Melbourne (hurry up summer, I am over winter too!)
    Cat xox

  6. I think you are amazing - i have no idea how much e-time my teens had these hols and I've put this in the "whatever" basket and think about the things that, to me, really, really matter. They are engaging with others, even if on-line sometimes! It's jsut different to how we grew up. They get little time on-line at school, so I see this as a balance!
    Teens are happy, I'm happy. Enjoy your crafting time.

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