I've mentioned this before, Reuben finds life a struggle.
We manage things with routine and predictability; exercise and medication
and most of the time this works just fine.
And then sometimes the wheels fall off and it all gets a bit hard.
This is one of those weeks.
The wheels fell off and we pretty much lost them!
There are lots of factors, it's the middle of winter and it's bitterly cold,
it has rained an awful lot and he hasn't been able to get out
walking his little dog as much as usual.
He is upset because we have started talking about
how we are going to move out to get our house repaired
and where we are all going to go etc.
It is made so much harder by the fact we are not in charge of the process
and cannot control where and when it will be,
and we probably won't all be together.
Today I feel exhausted and drained, and worried because the weekend is tomorrow
and we will have to deal with it all day every day,
so today I'm going to move slower than usual,
tick simple tasks off my list - change some wet sheets (a hottie leaked)
get some laundry washed and dried,
get some dishes washed and put away
and finish sewing the blocks of my Christmas quilt together.
This weekend we will keep warm,
plan a couple of simple outings and eat very healthy easy food (like soup)
hopefully the sun will shine a little bit
and we can get out for some fresh air.
Bit by bit the wheel will turn and things will come right again
and the pieces will be put back together.
This is what living with a child with anxiety is all about.