Sorry about the unscheduled bloggy break,
the end of the semester really kicked my butt!!
I have three posts knocking around in my head and so here's the first one.
The kids and I were driving to school the other day
and a Justin Timberlake song came on and Reuben turned it up,
he said "oh this is my favourite" so I decided to listen to the words.
"So don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me,Cause you might muck around and find your dreams come true with meSpend all your time and your money just to find out that my love was freeSo don't act like it's a bad thing to fall in love with me, meIt's not a bad thing to fall in love with me, me"
And as I listened to him singing along with Justin Timberlake,
I felt the tears pricking at the back of my eyes,
this brave little boy singing "don't act like it's a bad thing to love me".
Anxiety in a kid doesn't necessarily look like just someone who worries,
it can look like a kid who is angry, or one who is defiant,
it can look like a kid who just doesn't want to leave the house,
and one who has a lot of fake complaints.
It can be hard to live with.
Last week Reuben went on camp for the week
and we missed him. You know how some salt in carmel makes it taste amazing,
or some chilli in the chocolate. It's the unexpected ingredient that makes
the flavour explode in your mouth.
Reuben is like that unexpected flavour in our family.
As I listened to him singing, don't act like it's a bad thing to love me;
I realised that it's true, it's not a bad thing to love this kid,
in fact it's an amazingly good thing.
Loving Reuben is not always easy, but it is never a bad thing to love him.
I hope as he grows older he realises that even though loving him
means we drag him out the door and encourage him to be the best that he can be,
that our actions prove that it has never been a bad thing to love him.