One of the things I find hard about being a solo parent,
is the responsibility to make all the decisions for the family.
It's a really big deal,
to have to work out what is the best,
not just for little things, but for big things.
Frankly, I'm pretty worried about stuffing things up.
But then I have to tell myself,
what is the worst that can happen??
what is the important thing here??
what can I achieve if I change something??
The really really hard part is when you decide something
and then you get a whole lot of different opinions from people.
I mean getting advice is good and important,
but sometimes you have to make a decision
in spite of what other people think.
It's really really scary deciding to back yourself.
To say, I've done the research,
I've weighed the pros and the cons
and I've found a way forward.
The whole process is wearying to say the least.
Tomorrow I'm listing my house for sale.
I really really hope it is the right thing for our family.
I think this could be the scariest thing I've ever done by myself.
There have been a few secret tears.
I'm holding on by the skin of my teeth.