It’s hard to see the decisions of the past as a mistake. Part of me feels like I should but the reality is that each thing we have done has made the next thing a possibility.
I started writing this post a few days ago, while I was sitting up a hill. I didn’t make it to the top but who cares?? The view was amazing and we had fun. Honestly I think one of the biggest lessons I'm learning is to keep trying things, even when I don't succeed, I'm learning lots along the way.
So yes, life is kinda challenging but it’s also really exciting. I am working hard to make a life that fits me and the children, while learning to stay strong to my personal values. A good friend of mine challenged me a few months ago to make a list of goals with time frames and work towards them. I'd never actually been brave enough to do that before, but I keep pulling out my list and making sure I'm making progress on some of them. It's amazing how many little tasks I can chip away at while working towards my big goals.
I realise that I am very very fortunate to have a small group of very excellent friends to keep me on the straight and narrow. It is so good to be able to bounce ideas off someone else and make sure that you are not making too many big mistakes!
Hopefully in the next few months, we will sell and buy a house, move house, start studying all while working hard on the day job and my creative goals. Exciting times. It probably won't be seamless, there will be tears, there will be exhaustion, there will be challenges. But as long as we are doing it together, I think we are going to be ok. And if we aren't, lucky for us (thanks to Aunty Sharon and Uncle John) there's Kaituna Valley Homestead to go back to and lick our wounds!!!